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Is School REALLY Cool?

Erica — Thu, 19 Nov 2009 06:49:06 +0000

Tomorrow is the date I’ve been waiting for. I get to register for my Spring semester classes. Last semester I was all messed up with my registration time and I didn’t plan out my schedule before hand. So far, I’ve got a math class, an english class, a vet tech class and hopefully an animal handling class if it opens up. For some reason it’s not allowing anyone to register into it. Oh well, we’ll see what happens.

In other news, Ridge and I are applying for jobs non stop. Work around here is almost impossible to find. I’m going to be helping Ridge study for the GED test. He really needs it to improve his chances of getting a job. I hate that neither of us can get a job just because I’m young and he didn’t finish school. Sometimes life really sucks. Ridge isn’t a drop-out, he’s going to start college soon. But he can’t put that down on any applications until he actually starts classes. I hate that, but it’s the law and I’d rather he didn’t get charged with perjury. That would suck.

Speaking of the law and all the crappy legalities, I hate that almost every place around here doesn’t hire under 18. It’s completely unfair. I know, everyone says “Life’s unfair,” but this is stupid. Anyways, this is stupid. I’m going to continue being a lazy child, sitting at my house watching a movie. Maybe I’ll apply for some more jobs and then take a bath. Tune in next time for more fun stuff.

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Is The Truth Really Ugly?

Erica — Wed, 18 Nov 2009 07:23:49 +0000

I just finished watching the movie “The Ugly Truth” and it was really cute. But it got me thinking about men and love. Why is it that in movies, the men are always assholes but then they become amazing and fall in love with the person they would usually hate? Ridge and I are completely opposite but that doesn’t make us the perfect couple like these movies show. We fight like cats and dogs but what makes us stay together is the LOVE. It’s not our personalities, that’s for sure. Ridge can be a complete jerk and I know I’m crazy. It’s simply love that keeps us together. Isn’t that all it really should be though? Why does a relationship have to be about liking the things someone does? I mean, I like playing video games with Ridge and he enjoys taking my dog to the park, but it’s not like either of us is totally thrilled about doing it. We do it because we love eachother. Now, if Ridge was a total tree-hugger like me, I don’t think our relationship would be the same. I can’t say it would be better or worse, but it would be completely different and I’m not sure how well it would work.

And now, we interupt this program for a really ugly truth. Please stand by….

Hello boys and girls, I’d like to tell you all a little secret. I’ve been lied to yet again. Ridge is smoking again (did he ever stop). I find smoking disgusting and unattractive. I’ll be waiting for him to call me and explain what’s going on soon. This is yet another reason why our relationship isn’t like the ones in the movies. In the movies, the guy always ends up changing (FOR REAL) for the girl. In real life, it’s all a bunch of bull. The truth is something I have a problem with. You see, I was played multiple times by multiple guys and since then, I can’t trust a single person. I had finally gotten a hold on this problem with Ridge though, and had been trusting him 100%. That is, until it was betrayed again. Now it’s my turn to tell him the ugly truth. It’s intervention time. Stay tuned for more exciting news.

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Can Someone Tell Me My Future, Please?

Erica — Tue, 17 Nov 2009 07:16:30 +0000

I had a pretty intense conversation with Ridge today and I thought I’d share it with you all. Being that I’m 17 and he’s about to be 19, neither of us can drink. I choose not to because of my drunk father, but Ridge would much rather me be OK with it. Unfortunatelly I’m not, and that’s that for now. But we’ve been talking and I’ve been thinking and I’ve decided that I am my own person and can drink when I’m old enough and not become a drunk like my dad. I made Ridge a deal that when he turns 21 he can drink if he does it smart and safe, and once he buys his own place then he can have friends over to drink. He’s not allowed to pressure me to drink and he’s not allowed to get totally smashed without letting me know how he’ll get home safely. Personally, I think that’s fare. Just because I plan to have a few drinks when I’m older doesn’t mean I need to be pushed into it now. I don’t want to mess with my chances of getting a job and graduating college.

Another thing that came up was this dream I’ve had for when I’m older. I’ve always wanted to host a house-warming party and have it retro themed. I want to dress up in a silly dress that’s way too fancy, wear one of those little aprons, tons of makeup and have my hair curled in a bob. I want everyone to come in formal attire and I’ll serve little snacks and really fancy drinks like martinis and whatnot. I want to have retro games and music playing and all the men can sit around and chat while the women see my nice new kitchen. It would be like a scene from an old movie. That’s my plan for when I move in to my own place. Obviously people will bring gifts and it will have some actual “house-warming” things going on, but it will really just be a great way to be social and get to know some great people.

Speaking of being social, that brings up the other point I brought up with Ridge. I told him that even though I’m so against drinking now, I plan on doing a little bit so that I can have a better life than my Mom. I’m really working hard to start making this dream life that I have become real. I’m going to school to become a vet tech, applying for jobs and making Ridge do the same, starting a savings account and trying to improve my people skills. My Mom hasn’t gotten to spend any time with friends for over 5 years. Sure, she’ll see a movie once in a blue moon with the neighbor, but other than that it’s work, sleep, take care of the giant baby (aka my father). Ever since he stopped working, she’s had to take on the responsibility of the entire house. I try to do my part by not spending too much money, cleaning up so she doesn’t have to and staying out of her hair, but I just don’t want to live this kind of life forever. I want to have a husband with a good job, I want a job that I enjoy going to, I don’t want to have to work 10 times harder to just to get by and I definitely don’t want to spend my free time doing nothing. I want to go out and have a nice dinner with friends, see some movies and plays, go to a club and dance the night away. Now don’t get me wrong, I don’t want to party my life away and put myself in debt. I plan on working and I know damn well that my husband will have (and keep) a steady, well paying job. He’ll help me around the house, won’t spend money on useless things and won’t spend every other night getting drunk and high. I refuse to live like this once I move out. My life WILL be different.

I used to want to be in my Mom’s life forever. Lately that thought has been changing. I don’t think I could handle being around my Mom when I’m older if it means my father will be tagging along all the time. I’ve been begging her to leave him and I hope someday she will, but for now I’m not getting my hopes up. He’s not even in her bed more than 3 times a week. He’s either passed out on the couch or he’s at a friend’s house spending what little money we have on booze. I think I decided to make my life different when I was 9. I used to complain that I never had a real childhood, but now I don’t care because I want to start being better now. I don’t plan on being well off in life. I know I will be.

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An Update!

Erica — Mon, 16 Nov 2009 05:14:37 +0000

Since I’d like this blog to go far, I figured I should inform everyone of how this whole thing works. I tend to talk as if everyone knows me already, but obviously not many of you do. SO, if you ever see any names you don’t recognize, places you’ve never heard of, ect then I would head on over to the “About” page where I quickly go over some things to help clear up this whole mess of a blog. If I ever write something that I haven’t explained on that page (a person, for example), I will try to put a little note in the post about who I’m talking about.

Any questions? Feel free to send them to me via the “Contact Me” page. I’m also looking for all the other bloggers out there to send me some advice on how to write a blog, how to manage it, anything really. That would be great. Thanks again for checking in!

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Hello Apple Country!

Erica — Sun, 15 Nov 2009 19:02:28 +0000

For my first official post of this blog, I think I should make it about something different, that I don’t do every day. So today, my mother, boyfriend and I drove to Apple Country which is a place in California with TONS of apple orchards that all have craft shows and food for miles. It’s an amazing place, really. The air is so fresh, the food is delicious and real. There is nothing better than freezing your butt off in the middle of some forested hills and then taking a big bite of fresh, hot apple pie. The drive from Methdesto to Apple Country takes about 2 hours but it’s actually a really pretty drive. I tend to get carsick on windy roads, so for about 30 minutes of the drive I was trying to relax myself. Other than that, it was amazing. It was Ridge’s first time there and at first I didn’t think he would like it. It’s pretty artsy and he’s not into health foods, but he actually enjoyed it. He ate a LOT of pork, which is a big thing out there. We looked at gift shops and I even bought Kermit a little red corduroy jacket. It’s so cute, I can’t wait to give it to him.

Being out in the fresh air really cleared my head. I’ve been trying to start this blog for a few days now, but every time I go to write something I end up feeling totally blocked. But now that we are back, I feel relaxed and fresh. I ate WAY too much today, but I always over-eat on the weekends. Once the week starts back up, I’ll be right back to my normal diet of oatmeal, pasta and chicken. I’ve got homework for one of my classes but I don’t know what to do so I’m waiting on a text message from a friend. Until then, I’ve got to read up on how to blog. If anyone out there has some tips, PLEASE feel free to send them to me via comments or the contact page in the header. That would really help me out A LOT. I’m going to finally edit my About page and add in some important information, so I hope you guys can learn more about me soon.

Before I go, don’t forget – An apple a day keeps the doctor away!

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Welcome!

Erica — Sat, 14 Nov 2009 08:23:18 +0000

I’m finally writing a new blog. I used to write in a blog a lot, but it was more like a diary and it caused a lot of problems. I plan to use this as more of a discussion type blog, where I talk about things that bug me, things that teens these days have to go through, ect. Hopefully I can learn a lot more about blogging so that this goes far.

I’ll keep working on the layout of this blog and stuff, so check back more later.

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